heavy heart and another year older.

I'm sitting here in the nursery while Ava plays on the floor, and I'm just looking at her and thinking how grateful I am that she is here, healthy, and mine. We wished and waited for her for so long, and now I can't even imagine what my life was like without her before. Sure I get frustrated sometimes, but then she looks at me with that big toothless, gummy grin of hers and my heart just melts. She has me wrapped around her finger and has stolen my heart for sure. My life is forever changed. My heart is heavy today for those who are battling illnesses, and those who have lost children. I know the pain of losing a child. That child may not have made it too far in my womb, but it left a footprint on my heart forever, and there isn't a day I don't think about it. It's just not fair that parents have to go through that. I know God has a better plan for those children in Heaven, though, and oh how lucky they are to get to be with Him! It just makes going to Heaven so much sweeter knowing that those babies will be there waiting on us!

On a lighter note, I am 29 now! The last year of my 20's has started off pretty good so far. I spent my birthday (January 30th) on the couch with my baby girl in my arms most of the day. It rained all day long, it was gloomy and cold. Josh came home from work that morning with a dozen white roses with purple around the edges and a sweet card. We went out to eat with his parents that following weekend. I got a sweet card from them and some birthday money. I ended up getting myself a new pair of boots, a sweater and a shirt. That was a treat since I rarely buy clothes for myself anymore  :)

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. I get to see Shinedown AGAIN! I'm so excited! I think this will be my 5th time seeing them. Their shows are never dull and never get old. It will be nice to get out of the house and have a nice little date night with Josh.

All for now, time for Ava to eat... I'll leave you with a picture from her 3 month birthday  :)